"Happy Birdie 2 Ewe.........."

Good Morning;

So, A Year and a Day, sounds kind of like a sentence being handed down..lol...but it is the anniversary of my first post from last year when I started this blog.

Just for sh*t's and giggles, (and to fill space, [I'm learning.]..lol), here it is again:

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

First Post
Welcome to my World
My name is Dave C. and I am currently homeless on the streets of Baltimore, Maryland
hence, the cute title to the blog. This is my first experience blogging and is being done at the public library computers, so the entries may be a bit erratic in coming. I just wanted to record my journey through homelessness and my thoughts on life. I have actually found so much more kindness and compassion than I ever would have expected, sometimes in the strangest places and from the least expected sources. I hope anyone who reads this will be entertained and possibly informed as to some of the realities of Life on the Street from my viewpoint. I am out of computer time ...more later....... Dave

It has been an up and down year, and I am not going to repeat it all here when it is available easily enough in the archives to your left. I will say that without having this forum to vent, whine, observe, comment, psychoanalyze, be ironic, sardonic, and moronic, as needed, it would have been a much worse off year for me.

I thank all of you.

Today....

I thought this damn rain and fog were supposed to end yesterday, it is really messing with my depression. I have no energy and/or desire to even move. The only reason I have gotten up in the past 2 days has been bladder pressure and back pain, and I Could..(but resisted)..have just taken more of the bupe for the pain, (but the I would have had to deal with being out on the holiday, and that feels too much like old addictive behaviors, and I do not want to go there).

It has been a few days where the extreme ups of being with my daughters have been slowly but steadily eroded by the mental and emotional pressure of the upcoming holidays and the physical sense of isolation this time of year can bring on, exacerbated by this damn grayness that keeps my SAD active. The fact that I HAVE to get up, and pack up, and get dressed and go out,.. even to just go to the bathroom, that I cannot just lay there and read if the battery is not charged on the light source I am using, (and it only holds a 2 hour charge), and the sound of all the drips and leaks surrounding me, don't help a bit.

It has been the type of morning that is conducive to a 'Rock Star Breakfast Platter', (alternately known as, 'the Faded, Jaded Movie Star Special'), a simple B&B........Booze an Barbituates.......meal, and a nice long 'Dirt Nap'.

I'm going to go and overdose on coffee at the Starbucks instead, I don't want to ruin the day for the Birthday Blog....lol.

I am getting tired of turkey!!! With the holiday coming up, all the leftover sandwiches have been turkey, no one wants to burn out too early...lol! And I still have 2 more left, and there is tonights markouts to go yet. (Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to have them, I'm just being ironic...lol. And there has been no fried chicken available either, it has been inedible and trashed or just nothing in the dumpster that particular evening for the past few weeks....the geniuses may finally figured out how to cook a partial batch...lol). I'm hoping for a few breakfast sandwiches...."Yummmmmm..pork products!!"....or making a few bucks on the corner this evening..(if the rain lets up enough, and I can beat the 'junkie crew' to the spot), or on Thanksgiving Day, (unless I get an invitation somewhere...HINT...HINT....and yes I would love some turkey...lol, but I won't say no to any 'alternative' feasts....EXCEPT I'm not gonna do a vegan or vegetarian Thanksgiving, I sure as hell would not be thankful for anything there, and I may be an asshole, but I won't be a hypocrite.....lol!). Anywho, I'm getting lightheaded and dizzy ( well dizzier than usual.....), from lack of caffiene and low blood sugar, and I also want to get out and talk to someone......live. The library is closed tomorrow so I will be back on Friday.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful and safe holiday, remember, the roads are a madhouse, it is the most traveled day of the year for auto traffic. Please be careful.

I am thinking of going to the interfaith Thanksgiving dinner tonight at Brown Memorial Woodbrook Presbyterian Church/Kol HaLev Synagogue, if it is open to the public and not just congregants, (it should be, if they distributed flyers in the coffee shop), I know I said that I don't go to 'charity dinners', but this looks to be more of a 'community' affair open to all...who knows, I'll see how I feel at 7:30, if it is raining, and if I got lucky or not with donations on the corner.

I am going to be at the Mt. Washington Starbucks tomorrow as far as I know at this time, they are only open until 4:00 pm. though so it looks as if I'll either ride the train for a few hours or try to scrounge up a few bucks..( and this is ALL relative to whether I have any bucks or not, and how much)...and get a cheap flashlight and batteries and hit the shed as soon as it is dark, and read, after the DVD battery fades out. Though 16 to 17 hours the in the shed until the library opens on Friday does not have much appeal. It is still too early to tell.

I am available, if anyone wants me, for anything from just plain freindliness all the way to "shock value"...lol. You know where to find me in the next few hours and tomorrow too.

Thanks again...........Dave