Good Morning;
Well I'm still out of phase in my sleep patterns. I fell asleep finally at 9:00 am. Monday morning. I ended up getting up and going to the Giant to wash up, shave, and use the bathroom and shop for a meal about 4:30 pm. I was up at Noon and called Jenn to postpone coming by to bathe until Tuesday, because I would not been able to have made it over while Edward was still at school as we had planned.
(This actually works out better because she has a doctors appointment at 12:45 pm. and I'll be able to watch Devin, relieving Jenn of the burden of having to deal with her at the docs. office.)
I passed back out and did not hear the phone ring when my caseworker from Prologue called, and when I woke up at 2:30 pm. I did not notice the voicemail icon on the phone, and went back into a half-sleep until 4:30 pm.
It is not as if I am staying up on purpose, or that I am lazing around all day for enjoyment. I have been feeling totally drained and exhausted, and I don't know how to describe it but not just my muscles and my joints ache to the point that every major movement is an effort, my body is in pain from the inside out too.... from the swollen spleen and the gall bladder, which both come and go, and sometimes tag team along with the neuropathy from the chest surgery, and I JUST FRIGGIN' HURT.
I thought exercise might help, as all the articles in the papers and magazines on generalized pain suggest, so since I had to go to Monkee's this evening to pick up meds, I took a combination of buses and trains that forced me to walk more and I tried to use the stairs at the subway stations.....(and while I was there got my monthly pass for May....so that is two things I did accomplish at least!.....lol)
Well that was a big mistake. The degenerative disc deterioration in my, spine, and the scoliosis has me walking, (and sometimes limping), in such a way that my hips, knees, and ankles are misaligned, which means I'm walking, (and sometimes limping), in such a way that my spine is being subjected to abnormal stresses.....(see the loop).....plus carrying my bag with the possessions that cannot be left in the shed and the pressure of the tumor on my sciatic nerve......Okay.....and the excess weight that I really need to lose is no help either. And yet each specialist doctor I see says that the particular area of their specialty is not...BY ITSELF ALONE!!...cause for intervention, and I up being shuffled off to another doctor. This is one of the major reasons that the slide into depression which started in mid March, was such a quick, rapid, steep, deep, long, and hard to escape episode. Which I still am not wholly out of.....and that brings me back full circle to the start of this post....and the whacked out sleep cycles.
Anyway, I'm out of here now with one last item...
Janet of the online local news site/blog Pikesville Patch, www.pikesville.patch.com
who I met at the library a while ago has expressed an interest in linking the Patch to the blog and vice/versa. She also mentioned that she knew of someone who was interested in starting a poetry group/reading in the area, and also possibly doing some sort of story on my poetry and my desire to promote it.
I wrote her back and said that if she felt the content of the blog was appropriate for her reader base, feel free to link to it.
So...if you see any links back to the Patch, check it out please, to reciprocate. Also, you may find a Patch to your area/neighborhood/suburb among their sites.
Later........................Dave
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